Yesterday I woke up from not sleeping. Yes...the night before last, I laid in bed with my eyes closed all night. So yesterday getting to work was a miracle, but I made it. I had a heightened sense of smell. That is not a sense you want heightened! UGH. Every room had it's own smell...or more than one. I mostly smelled chemicals and sick people....
Well, because I couldn't sleep...I decided to not have my energy drinks anymore. Which means the want to stay on the diet was not easy. I'm all over the place but at least this time I understand what is happening. I am excited to be off the energy drink. After I am done with withdrawal, I can let my body heal. I also feel like the best way for me to do this is to take baby steps. (If I am doing it alone...)
I am glad that my whole want for good health hasn't left me like last time. I feel like last time I blamed the diet instead of the energy drink and it was totally the other way around. Everyone has to start somewhere and I am going to start with eating more and more raw and less and less cooked. I'm also going to try to not have meat and dairy. It's not hard at home...but those days that you go out OR the times that you stupidly forget to bring lunch...it's harder to eat vegan. I found something vegan at taco bell that I like though.
If only I could have a raw chef...ahaha. Low Fat Raw Chef....bringing me what I need throughout the day, buying all the food I need at the right times so I always have ripe fruit around XD.
Too bad too bad.
After doing 100% raw, having a little bit of cooked lately....I have just a nasty aftertaste in my mouth. I love how when only eating raw, your mouth is always just clean and your teeth are smooth... :D
So withdrawal sucks...just saying. Migraine after migraine...not much energy MEH
Tirtle is whining to go outside so I better go...
Showing posts with label 80/10/10. Show all posts
Showing posts with label 80/10/10. Show all posts
Tuesday, March 27, 2012
Sunday, March 25, 2012
Down to 1
So the journey started with my mom, sis, and I....but they quit yesterday. I guess it's time to change the description of my blog lol.
My stomach dropped when they were telling me they weren't going to do it anymore. All the bad memories of doing this alone in the past washed over me. Remembering how I would come home to the smell of cooked dinners that would tempt me to death.
It was so awesome having them on the diet...we ate together as a family...ish. My dad wasn't doing the diet, so he would eat with us sometimes and then go and find something else to munch on. (Let's just say he ate a LOT of peanut butter and cracker sandwiches....little guy!) But for the most part I had family to eat with and that is something I am going to miss. I know that maybe one day I will be so strong that I will be able to eat with them even if they are eating steak lol. Right now I could because I still have no appetite, but I TELL YOU WHAT, I am scared for when my cravings kick in and I have no one to stand by.
I am doing this for me though, so I don't want to give up.
Tirtle (my chihuahua), likes fruits and veggies AND she is so adorable, so at least she can motivate me MAYBES? lol
This weekend is so gloomy in MD. I am craving sunlight...It was 80 sum degrees on friday, then it was rainy and still rainly and depressing lol. My brother moved to hawaii...I wish I could have gone with him.
OKAY *slaps own face* NO MORE MOPING!
I am happy that I didn't give up.
I am happy I have money to buy healthy fruits and veggies.
I am glad God can lend me strength to do amazing things.
I am glad He has given me the strength to hold on to what is right.
I am glad I am moving forward.
I am excited the trees are budding.
I am excited to start a new life in health and happiness.
And I am willing to go through the hard times to get there.
My stomach dropped when they were telling me they weren't going to do it anymore. All the bad memories of doing this alone in the past washed over me. Remembering how I would come home to the smell of cooked dinners that would tempt me to death.
It was so awesome having them on the diet...we ate together as a family...ish. My dad wasn't doing the diet, so he would eat with us sometimes and then go and find something else to munch on. (Let's just say he ate a LOT of peanut butter and cracker sandwiches....little guy!) But for the most part I had family to eat with and that is something I am going to miss. I know that maybe one day I will be so strong that I will be able to eat with them even if they are eating steak lol. Right now I could because I still have no appetite, but I TELL YOU WHAT, I am scared for when my cravings kick in and I have no one to stand by.
I am doing this for me though, so I don't want to give up.
Tirtle (my chihuahua), likes fruits and veggies AND she is so adorable, so at least she can motivate me MAYBES? lol
This weekend is so gloomy in MD. I am craving sunlight...It was 80 sum degrees on friday, then it was rainy and still rainly and depressing lol. My brother moved to hawaii...I wish I could have gone with him.
OKAY *slaps own face* NO MORE MOPING!
I am happy that I didn't give up.
I am happy I have money to buy healthy fruits and veggies.
I am glad God can lend me strength to do amazing things.
I am glad He has given me the strength to hold on to what is right.
I am glad I am moving forward.
I am excited the trees are budding.
I am excited to start a new life in health and happiness.
And I am willing to go through the hard times to get there.
Wednesday, March 21, 2012
Amber: Day 4
Woke up this morning feeling like I could attempt at work. When I got to work though I realized I had made a huge mistake. When you don't live close to work, it sucks to have to "drive" home when you are not well. I kept feeling like I had to sneeze and barely ended up sneezing. Felt loopy and always on the verge of blacking out :/.
I am not hungry which makes me not able to eat the regular amount of calories. So being that with 811 you have to eat more than normal, I'm having some issues. I can't afford to lose weight so I just hope my body starts asking for food soon so I can eat and not gag on it. LOL.
I'm glad I am back home so I can just lay down while my body gets over this nasty cold or whatever it is. I can't stand missing work though. I hope I don't lose my job over this lifestyle change but I would rather lose my job and feel great than keep my job and have anxiety and depression. Talk about being a robot!
I thought of a cool analogy today for detoxing (I doubt I'm the only one XD). Your body is like a room. Inside that room you put things in it. If you don't have the energy to put those things away, you push them off to the side or throw them in a closet so that until you get to really clean-up you get them out of the way so you don't trip over them. 811 comes along and gives you major energy, so all the sudden you are ready to clean up this huge mess you made that's hiding in the closet....so you open the doors and BAM everything falls on the floor and you are tripping on it all and your room is just worse than it was before you started cleaning. But you organize and really deep clean that room and after you are done it's sparkling clean and you got clean sheets on the bed and the windows can finally open to let in some clean air. So yeah, it looks worse before it looks better when you start that big of a project, but it's worth it. The people that let themselves go and end up dead....they are like hoarders, ignoring the piles they are tripping over and acting like they can't live without those killer items until they get boxed in and die. HORRIBLE BUT TRUE.
<3 Amber
I am not hungry which makes me not able to eat the regular amount of calories. So being that with 811 you have to eat more than normal, I'm having some issues. I can't afford to lose weight so I just hope my body starts asking for food soon so I can eat and not gag on it. LOL.
I'm glad I am back home so I can just lay down while my body gets over this nasty cold or whatever it is. I can't stand missing work though. I hope I don't lose my job over this lifestyle change but I would rather lose my job and feel great than keep my job and have anxiety and depression. Talk about being a robot!
I thought of a cool analogy today for detoxing (I doubt I'm the only one XD). Your body is like a room. Inside that room you put things in it. If you don't have the energy to put those things away, you push them off to the side or throw them in a closet so that until you get to really clean-up you get them out of the way so you don't trip over them. 811 comes along and gives you major energy, so all the sudden you are ready to clean up this huge mess you made that's hiding in the closet....so you open the doors and BAM everything falls on the floor and you are tripping on it all and your room is just worse than it was before you started cleaning. But you organize and really deep clean that room and after you are done it's sparkling clean and you got clean sheets on the bed and the windows can finally open to let in some clean air. So yeah, it looks worse before it looks better when you start that big of a project, but it's worth it. The people that let themselves go and end up dead....they are like hoarders, ignoring the piles they are tripping over and acting like they can't live without those killer items until they get boxed in and die. HORRIBLE BUT TRUE.
<3 Amber
Tuesday, March 20, 2012
Detox
It's day "3" for me doing 811. (The 80/10/10 Diet)
I put it in quotes because on day 1, I binged at night on baked beans and corn chips. STUPID IDEA.
But yesterday and today I have been stuck at home with a sore throat and migraines. Sneezing and mucusy...sexy yes I know :p.
Is it detox or did I catch something that has been going around? I have no idea. I think it's what has been going around at work. But I have hope that it will go away sooner than normal as I have been eating really healthy. Being sick though, I haven't been so hungry so I am not happy with how much calories I have had. I feel that my body would rather work on my illness than work on digesting so much, so I'm eating but just not much.
I tried this diet a little while ago alone. I detoxed a bit and then felt amazing. Getting enough calories wasn't easy being that you eat SO MUCH FOOD on this diet, but my anxiety and depression went away, my hair felt amazing, my breath didn't smell, nor did I have to wear deodorant, I had a lot of energy and had courage to get out and go rock-climbing. (With my social anxiety also gone, I felt like I could do anything!). Why did I stop doing it? I was all alone, and living with my parents and sister, watching them eat the foods I liked, it was so stressful. I thought having just a little bit of bread would be okay...but then I would just have a little more of this and that till I was back to eating the S.A.D way (Standard American Diet). I regret it for sure. So quickly my health took a dive. My phobias were back, my anxiety was back, I had no energy, I was depressed...etc. I always thought though that one day I would get back to it because I knew it was the right thing. Eat to live...not live to eat right? It's so true.
So my sister decided she wanted to go for it. At first I just wanted to lay down and do nothing but then all the memories of when I did it before came back and I got super excited. My mom even is going for it too.
It only took me 1 week doing 100% on the 811 raw vegan diet to see those benefits, so I am really excited to see what it will do the longer I go on it. Reading the blogs and watching the videos from those who have been doing this for years is what gives me the most hope. This way of life is not an easy transition, but it is totally worth it. I'm 23...I shouldn't feel like I'm dying! Whatever diseases I have can be reversed by giving myself the raw materials it needs to fight the toxins and the krap sittin in there.
It's time to make a change....it's time to stop wishing, and start DOING. So here I go :D
~Amber
I put it in quotes because on day 1, I binged at night on baked beans and corn chips. STUPID IDEA.
But yesterday and today I have been stuck at home with a sore throat and migraines. Sneezing and mucusy...sexy yes I know :p.
Is it detox or did I catch something that has been going around? I have no idea. I think it's what has been going around at work. But I have hope that it will go away sooner than normal as I have been eating really healthy. Being sick though, I haven't been so hungry so I am not happy with how much calories I have had. I feel that my body would rather work on my illness than work on digesting so much, so I'm eating but just not much.
I tried this diet a little while ago alone. I detoxed a bit and then felt amazing. Getting enough calories wasn't easy being that you eat SO MUCH FOOD on this diet, but my anxiety and depression went away, my hair felt amazing, my breath didn't smell, nor did I have to wear deodorant, I had a lot of energy and had courage to get out and go rock-climbing. (With my social anxiety also gone, I felt like I could do anything!). Why did I stop doing it? I was all alone, and living with my parents and sister, watching them eat the foods I liked, it was so stressful. I thought having just a little bit of bread would be okay...but then I would just have a little more of this and that till I was back to eating the S.A.D way (Standard American Diet). I regret it for sure. So quickly my health took a dive. My phobias were back, my anxiety was back, I had no energy, I was depressed...etc. I always thought though that one day I would get back to it because I knew it was the right thing. Eat to live...not live to eat right? It's so true.
So my sister decided she wanted to go for it. At first I just wanted to lay down and do nothing but then all the memories of when I did it before came back and I got super excited. My mom even is going for it too.
It only took me 1 week doing 100% on the 811 raw vegan diet to see those benefits, so I am really excited to see what it will do the longer I go on it. Reading the blogs and watching the videos from those who have been doing this for years is what gives me the most hope. This way of life is not an easy transition, but it is totally worth it. I'm 23...I shouldn't feel like I'm dying! Whatever diseases I have can be reversed by giving myself the raw materials it needs to fight the toxins and the krap sittin in there.
It's time to make a change....it's time to stop wishing, and start DOING. So here I go :D
~Amber
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